So, after reading your reply, I listened to your performance of the Chopin etude, again, an etude that I have never heard before listening to your recital offerings, and something happened on the inside of me. It was like a dim echo that got louder as the measures progressed.
You know how sometimes you get those nagging feelings?--whispers and nudges and dark memories that you can't quite sort out?
Several things occued to me, and I do not mean to take anything away from your accomplishment in getting this piece up to performance par; rather, I post these thoughts for the sake of discussion. You handle the musical and technical aspects of this etude amazingly well, imho. (Third listen.)
1) This piece reminded me of a piece I worked up for recital when I was younger and under instruction, three decades or so ago. I think that is why I had such an odd, visceral reaction to the composition
of the piece--it recalled, in a fuzzy, unfocussed way, many hours at the piano working on a piece that I was not all that interested in, and that I did not understand. That piece was Liszt's Hungarian Rhapsody No. 15.
(Click to hear Cziffra.)
2) I have heard it said that Chopin and Liszt were somewhat rivals. If I had the research chops, I would look at when the Chopin Etude and the Liszt Rhapsody were written. To my ear, they sound strangely similar, as if rivals asked each other, "What can you do with octaves?"...