Thanks jdw. Just woke up after a night of self-reflect. It was a complete disaster, I have never performed this badly before...but I guess it helps me grow as a performer. It's just funny that before the recital I have practiced so much, did all my homework, taken all the necessary steps to calm nerves etc, and then as soon as the first note hits the key everything just went out the window. I played on auto-pilot and felt like I was playing on ice, throughout the piece I just pray my fingers doesn't slip and somehow magically I would be transported back in time so I could start over again. :(((( anyway I guess I learn some lessons from this experience.
You know, maybe probably wasn't that bad.
Once, I remember thinking I flunked a piano exam, when I got a really good mark in the end.
Maybe it's the pressure and nerves building up on you, what with switching fingers and such.
But if nothing else, you've learned great lessons.
(And heard wise words from great people over the internet.)