No unfortunately. I still cannot make up my mind to start playing piano again since my love for it was killed at music school. But perhaps - if I allowed my love to be killed by circumstances - I don't want it as much as is required to play something awesome? I don't know
I have a story. Decades ago, when I was studying the violin as an adult, everyone in my teacher’s studio attended a masterclass with Pinchas Zukerman.
At the end of the master class Zukerman took questions. My teacher’s best student, an Asian girl of about fifteen, raised her hand and asked, what do you do if you’re sick of playing the violin? We were all stunned.
Zukerman looked at her, and seemed to sense her circumstances, that she was an advanced student who was weary after ten years of hard work. He thought about the question for a long time and said simply, put the violin down for six months. If you’re driven to play the violin, you will pick it back up. If not, you won’t.
I don’t think any of us can tell you what to do. If you must play the piano, you will go back to playing the piano. You are the master of your own fate. You decide every day what you will and won’t do.
I am sad to hear that music school killed your love of playing the piano. That’s exactly the opposite of what it should do.